26 April 2010

Aakhir Kyun ?!?


I started blogging because I have this habit of talking incessantly. What’s weird about that you ask? Listen further. I talk incessantly to myself. All in the head. When I am alone. All by myself. I guess I got it from my father. He used to talk a lot too. But then that was because he was drunk most times!

Then why do I talk alone? Aakhir kyun? Psychological problem? Could be. I definitely think we so- called ‘normal’ people aren’t all that normal after all. The ones in mental asylums have fewer phobias/problems than we sane people do. Agree with Yogaraj Bhatt there. Remember “Manasare”? Uppi also said this much before him in “A” released ages back.

So, well … I keep talking in my head. On almost every conceivable subject on earth. If you could record my head, the recorder would coolly playback endless conversations. Long drawn monologues. Spirited, mind you! The conversations are never dull. Always forceful. When I am moved by something, the outpourings begin. Even though what moves me could be something as mundane as the lighter of my gas stove or as remote as Star Cruises or as abstract as Utopia.

Then, one day, when our T.V remote “died”, I once again started talking in my head. This time, however, I got up & put it down on paper. Word to word. Just as I was saying it in my head. No editing. Free flow of words. Thinking aloud. Putting pen to paper. Quite out of the blue.

And then I asked myself, “Can I publish this stupid, one- page crap, say in a newspaper/magazine or even a leaflet?” NAAAAH!!

Then it struck me. Why don’t I just blog it? Blogs do welcome all & sundry. You needn’t have a course in creative writing or be tech savvy or intellectual to be a blogger. If you are all or any of these, good for you! But then you don’t HAVE to be! All you have to be able to do is put pen to paper. Quite literally. And if you are passionate about things around you, it HELPS!

So that’s how I started blogging. No agenda. No creativity. No “writer in the making” business. Just plain “recordings of my head” stuff.

The best part is, it has actually helped ‘calm’ my restless mind. Is this how psychos feel when they talk to their shrink? If so, I am with you guys. After all, I am one too!!!


41 comments:

  1. You are absolutely right! We need to get it out of our system and so we blog.Im going to read what you worte next now and hopefully I'll have fun...oodles of it...

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  2. I used to think on same lines and decided am weired. you also observed me in exam doing it. but now i can say am normal...:)

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  3. Very true and nice...
    here v can write what v want....

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  4. hey i do that too..And only in the 9th grade did I realise that everyone was not like that! Thank god for blogs

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  5. @Suzaan: thank u darling ;)

    @suraj: yes u n i are normal; whether others think so or not :)

    @Anne: hihihi...u too? haa

    @indu: yes. the freedom to pen our thoughts is liberating

    @confused: ya not everyone is a specimen like us heheh.welcome to the club :)

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  6. blogging provides a vent to frustration and creativity alike

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  7. @Nona: thanks Nona

    @Deguide: yes i have discovered that in my journey here

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  8. Haha, nice and creative! :)

    please promote my post on IndiVine! It can be found here- http://goo.gl/4Ik3e

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  9. you know what, I blog for the same reasons...but I have been told am schizo :D I don't know if you are :P hehe....And I need to exercise and practice yoga, which I did last year and haven't been doing justice to my body this year...see there i go...gosh now i need to blog :|

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  10. thats exactly why i started my blog too!..i like the phrase "recordings in my head" thats exactly how it feels like

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  11. Thank God.There are many people like me in this world. I thought it was something fundamentally wrong with me, when I realized I talk non stop.

    I'm totally able to relate to this post.

    keep writing :)

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  12. @yash: thanks

    @Chintan: wat crap! schizo!! nonsense! rubbish!
    but just for a sec lets 'assume', that were the case, then know this: U GOT COMPANY :))

    @Miss: i feel so 'normal' now :)

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  13. @Ashwini: u knw how relieved i am too! :)
    thanx for stopping by

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  14. You said it: "Blogs do welcome all and sundry. You needn’t have a course in creative writing or be tech savvy or intellectual to be a blogger"
    That is why I started blogging too.
    Happy Blogging.
    Regards
    Vikram

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  15. @Vikram: wow! one of my fav bloggers who i see on indiblogger! thank u Sir

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  16. Blogging be it a picture or a word
    is the essence of humility an echo
    that is heard ..shared dispersed

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  17. So true...so we all belong to same category and that's the reason why we blog....Conclusion: We are absolutely normal :)

    Nice Post :)

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  18. @Firoze: well said Firoze!

    @Hemant: hahah whatta happy conclusion!

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  19. It's amazing how many people have this habit of thinking constantly. (I am not going for the word talking which I should admit sounds little serious)
    I agree. Blog is a good channel to put your thoughts out there.

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  20. @Sairam: yes indeed, an apt medium for a crazed mind like me

    @Someone: :)) more power to us??

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  21. thank god for echoeing my thots. i thot i m crazy since i talkked to myself too much..GOD ..i am so relieved!

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  22. @maniac: yes,thank you god coz there r so many like us hehee :)

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  23. Almost every blogger suffers from your syndrome. A good post. Nice flow of thinking.

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  24. @Neeraj: thank u Neeraj. a relief indeed that many suffer from this syndrome :)

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  25. well written Sujatha.. true I guess majority of them start blogging for the same reasons you mentioned... :) :)

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  26. @Sukupedia: thanks :). seems so to me too.
    btw,interesting name!

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  27. Nice one!
    That's exactly y I also blog.
    Where else do we have the freedom to express our thoughts as we like in crude?

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  28. @leepaw: true, well said - where else ? express our thoughts as we like in "crude"

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  29. I also jumped onto the bandwagon- more the merrier:)))

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  30. @specs: haha true more the better :)

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  31. the line -'people in mental asylums are more normal than us' ..they have less to think about!..is absolutely thought-provoking.

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  32. @Rohit: :)

    with our insane craze for numbers, we are sure going up the wrong way :(

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  33. I can totally connect with you as this was pretty much the story of how I started to write as well.

    Now that I have connected the puzzle (;)), I find your "Remote" post even more special. Or rather, it was the beginning of something really special. :)

    And most often than not, it is these supposedly trivial things that we ramble/scribble (directed by our mind and produced by our heart) turn out to our most endearing works. :)

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    1. ya i know!!! that is how it is, isn't it!!! how one day i was just murmuring in my head and today 90 plus posts later,i am addicted to what started as just a random thing

      true, some 'trivial' things are not so trivial after all

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  34. My goodness, that's the reason why I started blogging too..b cos I talk a lot..a lot means a lot...I thought this would be one place to release everything!!! One more follower to the list..looks like one more to my list..:)

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    1. haha yeah many of us are similar and share almost same starting point stories :))

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